Nobody understands.

hung up.
he listened to what i said.
he needs to see.evidence of the change.

and it has to be long-term.


how long is long term?days,months,or years?


after so much thinking and crying,i finally thought through and told him everything.
instead of pacthing up/keeping him,he said he needs to see,not listen
it felt like a slap right in the face.
but im not going to back out.
i felt the change,i need him to feel the change too.or rather,see the change.
and i really need to take note of what words i used.cos when one word is use in a wrong way,it can change the meaning of what ure expressing.i say the wrong things at wrong time.
and,i really think im retarded.his brain works too fast for me

im going to use this to prove how much i love him.



hang in there,u have reached the probation stage.
you can do it.you can get him back.

i have thought it through.

i am on the right track now.i hope so.
alright,quit hoping.

taking a whole new way to deal with the old problem.
im enlightened.
i really want it to work out well,i've even got my 'speech' ready.
you called just now,i was in total shock.
you said u wanna talk,but i was on the bus,so you want me to reach home first.
but when i told you that i've reached home,you dint reply after that.

i,really and truly,want to fly to see you right away,solve all problems and let things back to normal again.
but i know i have to control myself,take things slowly.
since im so determined to get you back,den i should apply the same determination in controling myself.

drama happens.
we're only 7 seats apart.
and i could only turn away when u saw me

i can feel that i have changed.

[	Mood	|	crushed	]
[	Music	|	like you will never see me again/alicia keys	]

i feel like i am living in my own world.
everyone is gone.where has everyone gone to?


within these 3 days,i
spilled water on my top while drinking water,(x2)
almost trip and tall while walking,(x3)
almost got knock down while crossing the road, (x2)
packed customer's shoes in the wrong box, (x2)
wrote the wrong article number on the memo, (x2)
broke down at scotts during work,(x1)
broke down on the bus/mrt (x4)
felt each day feels like a week,(x2)
wished i dont have to knock off from work (x3)

2 more days to 15th month.

i dont want it to come so soon.
everything reminds me of you.

you are doing it the wrong way.it hurts even more now.
my mind is exploding.

dont leave,please?